"a universal theology is impossible...a universal experience”—
the experience of love, of forgiveness, of God's presence with
and within us—“is not only possible but necessary."
Course in Miracles
came to me in 1988 as an answer to a prayer. Even though my life
at that time looked great on the outside— because I had
all the stuff that I had been told would lead to a happy life
(charming husband, education, great job, beautiful home, wonderful
children and friends—inside I felt anxious and angry much
of the time. I kept hearing this nagging, self-critical voice
within me. I
found myself one day sitting in a dark bathroom next to the toilet
feeling lost and miserable, praying for help. I had a feeling
I must be missing something—there had to be more to life
was the prayer that changed everything because it brought the
Course to me, even though it took me another three years (and
more confusion) before I began my study of it. Since 1993, I have
assisted other students in their study of the Course by helping
them learn to read and understand it for themselves. It takes
time and practice, but it is well worth the effort. The spiritual
ideas and mind training exercises contained within these three
volumes have the power to transform anyone’s life, if they are
put into practice.
I was introduced to A Course in Miracles in the early 90s,
I, like many, felt that it had come into my life at just the right
time. What I wasn't prepared for was the amount of resistance
I would experience as I tried to understand its messages. At that
time, I did not realize I had a Ph.D. in "I already know
for the first few years of my doing the workbook, I read the instructions,
but did not bother to follow them, because I already knew everything
(remember my Ph.D.). After many years of frustration, humiliation
and even exhaustion, I did something very radical—I decided
to follow the instructions. And to my sheer amazement, I began
to have results.
there is anything I would recommend to new A Course in Miracles
students, it would be this:
text and then study it some more.
apply the lessons and then read and apply them some more.
importantly, follow the instructions!
was diagnosed mentally ill, living on disability, and seriously
considering suicide when the Course came into my life. When I
began to meditate on the lessons, I was so full of fear that I
could hardly close my eyes for more than a few moments.
to 'sit still' and 'listen in quiet' was not an easy thing for
me to do. Gradually, I began to have little experiences of light
coming through the darkness in my mind; tiny moments of peace
and joy that motivated me to continue. I began to ask the Spirit
within to help me understand what I was reading and how to apply
it to my life.
practice, over time, my life transformed. Fear was replaced with
happiness and love beyond anything I ever imagined could be possible.
Now, when my peace is shaken, I know exactly what to do to get
it back. The mind training of the Course works, and it
will work the same for you! Begin...and just keep going. You will
be so glad you did!
was no accident that I began my study of A Course in Miracles
six months before my son was murdered. Had it not been for Jesus'
Word, my life would have ended with my son's. Instead, I am learning
to use His Power within me to change my feelings of rage and despair
to forgiveness and love. A Course in Miracles can do the same
convinces you of what you want to perceive... Everything you
perceive witnesses to the thought system you want to be true."
Dumont ("Rusty") Hixson
and Dumont ("Rusty") Hixson were both the inspiration
and the cameramen for these video classes. Bonnie and Rusty both
are inspiring examples of those who have heard a call to take
a part in the sharing of the Course, and have answered it with
dedication and with love. We are all grateful for their joining
us in this outreach. We could not be doing this without them.
O'Kelley has always been a spiritual seeker, and when she found
the Course back in 1980, she knew she had something...but what?
many years of study before she caught up with Robert Perry, who
was giving an intensive program in 2000 called "This One
Year We Give To God." It was there she really learned how
to study, apply and share the Course with others.
then, she started Course Community House in Sedona, married her
spiritual partner Timothy Holmes, and sponsored a year's daily
study of the Text and Workbook at The Little Garden in Tucson.
Jan is grateful for all those who have joined with her in learning
and sharing A Course In Miracles. She's now finding herself in
an exciting and beautiful synergy of purpose with others who love
the Course and want to share it. Check out www.thelittlegarden.org
Holmes says, "Learning to think along the lines A Course
In Miracles sets forth, means learning to think with God about
who we are and therefore what will be our way of life. Our
Course says this is taught and learned in many ways, but above
all by a demonstration in your own life of a choice for Love or
Forgiveness where there once was fear or hate. Discussing, reading
and writing about the Course itself can be helpful in learning
to think with God about who we are and our way of life."
believe each student of the Course can learn of their loving and
forgiving Self and its way of life, primarily from the Course
itself. Start with the Course itself, look to what others have
written about it if you like, but return to the Course so it is
your first and last place for understanding and comprehension.
was given a copy of A Course in Miracles in 1992. Stubbornness
kept me from actually reading it for the next seven years. It
was while in the throes of an emotionally painful phase in my
life that my attention could not escape the “dusty blue
book” in the corner of my bedroom.
can say with certainty that the best decision I have ever made
was when I finally allowed myself to open to “page 1”.
After reading just a few words, I was hooked. I have always considered
myself to be “the case that even God could not crack”
and I can remember early in my practice wondering how the simply-worded
lessons (Workbook for Students) could really make a difference.
Their miraculous results began to show up in hindsight when I
would realize that I wasn’t responding with the usual anger,
defensiveness or feeling like a victim - even the recent diagnosis
of Parkinson’s Disease hasn’t dimmed the Light in
my life in any way.
Course has shown me how to stay connected and aware of that Voice
within that continually reminds me that I am perfect and changeless
and that nothing can change that. I continue to study Course and
I invite students to my home weekly to study with me. I have learned
that connected to each and every challenge in my life is a very
attainable tool for shifting my focus from the distorted meaning
I have assigned to a situation - to actually seeing things from
another perspective. I am certain that connected to each and every
triumph in my life is the application of such a tool. Since reading
A Course in Miracles, I have never seen so clearly, felt
so happy or lived so fully. I am profoundly grateful for this.
was living in my Jeep with my two dogs after a devastating divorce.
I was so caught in a thinking loop focused on what I had lost—my
wife, my newly constructed home in the woods, my job—that
I was unable to make any decisions about my future, with no time
for the present. I couldn't think my way out of my situation.
I was experiencing shellshock. My only solution was to eat and
drink myself unconscious.
am better than I used to be, because by learning about my spiritual
reality, I now have more faith in the future than regret over
the past. I live now more in the present, because by losing all
that I thought gave my life meaning, I'm beginning to find my
real Self. I've learned that by changing the way I look at things,
the things I look at change.